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Dear Freshman-in-High-School Natalie,
Congratulations for not throwing up on the first day of high school. You don't throw up on the first day of college, either, which ought to reassure you that everything will work out okay.
I wish you had learned how to study, because freshman-in-college Natalie is writing you this letter instead of working on a paper or Anthropology. It happens. Anyways, I wish I had a chance to talk to you. Hopefully it would get you to stop wearing that awful eyeshadow-eyeliner-contouring thing that you keep doing. As much as I like gothic rock now, dressing like that really wasn't necessary. At least now I get to laugh about your pictures.
I really wish you hadn't hacked away at your bangs one day. It looked really stupid for months, and Im still trying to grow them out. Thanks. You're also very pretty, not fat, blah blah blah. I wish you had gotten over yourself sooner, because as soon as you did, you got so much more confidence! Boys were not into you because you had no confidence and tried way too hard to be different.
You don't know it yet, but you're going to move to Singapore before Sophomore year of high school. It's going to be a crazy three years that changes your point of view on everything. You're going to learn more about dance than you thought you would. You're going to travel Asia and eat delicious things. You're going to meet amazing people. Some of your best friends are going to be made in Singapore. You're going to lose your friends back in the US because you're too different now.
Yes, you get a boyfriend. Your relationship is going to be an adventure that lasts far longer than you ever expected it to, and you're going to learn that love works in various ways. You're going to have ups and downs, and learn a lot about yourself from him. You're going to find out relationships take work and love isn't always enough. There's trust, hope and patience in a relationship. There's going to be a point where you decide to go to college to follow him. It sounds crazy now because you think you're so independent and strong, but life works in funny ways. Then you're going to apply to transfer in to England, because you haven't gotten your fill of international student life yet.
Freshman-in-High-School Natalie, you're a pretty cool person. I think you would probably bother me now, but that's natural. You don't know what lies ahead of you, and that's okay because even now I have no idea. You'll get out of that little town eventually. Give it time, and everything will be okay.
I don't know why you thought this looks cool. It doesn't. Sorry, me-from-the-past.